Tomorrow, 5TH JULY, is my birthday! I should be jubilant but I did not want to celebrate it. Whenever it came to the day, I just could not afford myself not to swing my temper or bawl my head off at a corner that no one could see. I tried to let it go and been working hard to stand on my feet again but… I still fail to do so! The inner and the physical pain that I was having, was the worst that I ever had. Who can come and ease my pain? Will a miracle appear in my life? How long would it take to do so? These… were the sillies yet unanswered questions that were rolling in my head. “Oh, this is sickening”, I told myself.
Initially, I thought everything was going smoothly and all were under my control. I did not expect that this would be the outcome of my mistake. From a naïve, innocent and cheerful girl, I turned into a solemn and mature girl who no longer knew what happiness was. Apart from the brightness, darkness seemed to be my permanent life partner. Perhaps one day, by a slip of fate, I might run out from this circumference. Who knew maybe a minute later, this tiny wish would be fulfilled! As the saying goes,
“You can never foresee your future!”
All of a sudden, a gentle breeze blew and fluttered the leaves of the shabby tree. I lifted my head and looked up. A multitude of birds flew high up in the sky and sang joyfully. I wondered whether they were as happy as I thought. How I wished I could be like them. By possessing a pair of wings like them, I strongly believed, I could fly to a world that no longer knew pain and suffer. After all, I knew all these were just only my imagination because all these were not real.
As I thought further about the pain, tears glistened in my sparkling eyes and streamed down my cheeks. My heart sank and was on pain, as if there were thousand of thorns pierced through my heart. Slowly, I turned my head and faced the old wise woman. It was Mrs. Tan, Sam’s mum. Tears of sorrow glistened down her chubby cheeks when she started starring at the lovely tombstone and sat beside it. It is Sam. No, it WAS Sam, my first crush and also the man who changed my life completely.
‘Oh no, what am I doing?’ I asked myself.
Quickly, I drew my tissues out from my bag and moved my way to her. As I walked along the greenly grassy field, the bitter sad memory began to bring me back to past. It was still very fresh in my mind though it happened long ago…
No comments:
Post a Comment